The last 8 days have been days of rest here for Bill and our family. It was a much needed week. Bill had 2 appointments down at FH and had some dental work done. He got his eye exam completed & ordered new glasses. He is trying to get his necessary appointments done prior to treatment starting.
Ellia returned from Girl Scout camp with lots of stories from her week as a PA for the littler girls. This year came full circle for her, she has been going to camp since she was in kindergarten.
Addie was in College Station TX at Jr Olympics Nationals where she competed in shootout & hammer. Bill's cousins wife, Christy took her since we needed to stay behind. She returned excited about her experience & ranking 10th in nation in her age group. Christy and her had a great time!
Micah got his braces off earlier than expected and enters High school in the fall with perfectly straight teeth - accomplishing his goal.
And a construction crew began work on turning our formal dinning room into an office/quarantine room for bill while he is in treatment. It will be a space he can rest, be on work calls and isolate if needed when one of us gets sick.
Bill's week although not "busy" with appointments like the last few weeks was a hard week. I think when you have the down time like we did you have time to let the body truly "let down" and absorb what is truly happening. We both felt the funk take over. And truth be told once you get into that space it's easy to stay there. It's incredible how our marriage works though. On the days I feel it most he is up and supportive. And on the days he is down I am able to rally him. We are definitely supporting each other.
As a wife, mother, aunt & now caregiver I am feeling the pull from every direction. And it is truly exhausting!! I visited the doctor & got all my levels checked. Trying to stay healthy as I can too. I also had my first acupuncture treatment & felt it to be very relaxing! All in all I am handling things well, which is unusual for me. I am a high strung/anxious person normally. But somehow there's this side of me that is cooler, calmer coming out. Not always, but she is there & she has started to show up. I pray she shows up more & is truly able to help everyone in the house during these next 6months of treatment.
This week with Bill down a few days due to pain (from getting some much needed dental work) I did glimpse the future 6mo a little. He slept a lot. He was more withdrawn and pulled away from us. He has dropped some weight and it is starting to be noticeable. We joke that luckily he had some weight to loose & won't look skin and bones during treatment. However, after two days of this I emotionally told him what I was seeing, how I was feeling and my fears. He sat there listening and at the end said "I have not given up". Although my heart knew this my mind did not and watching him like this made my despair spiral more.
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