This week we had some setbacks. The setbacks were preventable. Who knew a breakfast burrito could ruin the trajectory of your plans? When Bill called me I knew something was wrong...he was quiet & then I heard the cries. He was crying and saying "I messed up, I messed everything up".
In that moment I need to comfort him & hit him upside the head were both raging within my body. I comforted him the best I could in those few minutes. Re-assuring him things were going to work out. Immediately after hanging up with him I stepped out of my office & took a walk sobbing. Why? Why did he eat that stupid burrito? That decision would now cost us a delay of 4 weeks starting chemo.
I let myself have those moments of disappointment & then made the conscious decision to move forward & give this over to God. Everything was truly out of our hands. Sure we could be upset & emotional but that wasn't going to help us.
When Bill picked me up that day I looked him in the eyes and said "look, we can be upset but that ends now. We have to move forward & keep believing in God's plans. He hasn't forsaken us yet & he won't now", Bill too had picked me up with his own pep talk for me. He said very similar words and we drove home in agreement. We were done being upset. God was fighting on our behalf and we would pray for his plans to manifest in his timing. Continuing to walk in his provision & Trust in Him.
Two days later we got the call. They'd found Bill a new PET scan appointment at a different hospital and his chemo was now only delayed 1 week instead of 4 weeks. We praised God & Thanked him for his provision.
God is still fighting for us even when we feel disappointed, frustrated and abandoned. God is still there!
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